Our Birth Story (3rd time is a charm)

7/28/12 Aptos, CA Ethan Jacob Azrael Kamakawiwo’ole, born 7/23/12, 9lbs, at 10:45am in Aptos, CA Birth Story I went to bed Sunday night, 7/22/12 thinking Ethan wasn’t coming for another week. I heard an adult male voice say, “I’ll see you Thursday morning.” I knew this was Ethan. I couldn’t fall asleep that night, didn’t fall asleep till probably about 3am. I woke up between 4:30 and 5:30am with contractions, I remember being in a deep sleep, not sure if I was having contractions or not, but as I came to, I realized I was. I got up around 5:30 and the contractions continued. I wondered about filling the pool, or calling the midwife, but waited. The contractions eventually got stronger and I texted Sushine at 5:36am. I tried to sleep, lay down for the next couple of hours, but the contractions were getting stronger overall, they would subside a little bit, and then get stronger again, I was laboring on the toilet a lot, and prepping baby and birth items in the room, but was waiting to fill the pool. Around 8:30am I decided to fill the pool. In between contractions on the toilet, I would check the pool temp. and continued to put baby items out, to make sure all our supplies were at hand. By around 8:30-9:30 I couldn’t get to the phone to call, in between filling the pool and getting ready while having contractions every minute or two, I couldn’t even get to the phone to call Sunshine, the contractions were lasting longer, were much stronger, and I could feel that Sunshine knew anyway, and was coming at some point. By the time I got to the phone to text her, she said Mireille (the other midwife) was on her way, and by the time she got to the house, and I walked to open the door, the contractions were totally stopping me in my tracks. My water hadn’t broken, but it felt like it would at any moment. I continued to labor on the toilet for a little longer, Mireille said I could get in the tub, I really wasn’t sure I was ready to get in the tub, and couldn’t really move myself from the toilet, so I stayed there for a few more contractions. I finally got in the pool, and had a few more contractions, I finally pushed with one, and was very hesitant to do so because I wasn’t sure it was time yet, so Mireille checked and my cervix was open. So with the next contraction I pushed a little, and with the next one, I pushed more. The head really descended in my uterus, I knew that if I pushed again the head was going to be close to crowning, so I held back for a couple more contractions. Then Sunshine arrived in the middle of a contraction. I pushed with the next contraction and could feel the head was right there, but I wasn’t sure so they checked, and yes, he was there. So, with the next contraction I knew I’d probably be close to pushing him out, but I was still hesitant to go there, luckily the body just takes over and does its thing. I pushed the head to just about out with the next contraction, and then relaxed. Then on the next contraction out came his head. About 10-20 seconds passed and then I pushed out his shoulders with the next contraction. All of this labor was about a half hour, it was incredibly fast and easy overall, much quicker than my first two births. Mireille caught him and I pulled him up to me. I checked his gender to be sure, and yes, he was a boy! He had a full coat of vernix and I held him in the pool for a while waiting for the placenta to come. After the placenta was delivered, we got out of the pool and we laid down to nurse. He was very active with his hands and mouth, but he wasn’t very coordinated with the breast for the first hour or so. Then he eventually latched on well in the second or third hour. The midwives checked us, made sure all was well, they cleaned up and several hours later, Jacob and I were at home in bed alone, again. This birth was amazing! Fast, easy, simple, and a much easier recovery than with my first two. I love home birth. I love my midwives. I love birthing in water. So happy my babies and I had these blessed simple, peaceful births. I love not having to go anywhere, and just staying in the energy of birth without interruption. It is by far one of the most empowering experiences a woman can have. I had this wall of fear around pushing him out and the sensations I’d feel, all the unknowns of how long labor would be, if it would be hard, etc. And this was the fastest and easiest one, way more than I ever expected. I had many visions of animals during this labor, and Spirit guides. Bast, Polar Bear and Whale made a strong appearance. Some close healer friends showed their faces, I knew I was tapping into a power source much stronger than my physical body. The recovery this week has also been much better than before, a mix of diet and energy healing. I have bled way less, and my bum has felt 10 times better than with my other two births. Overall, this third birth was way easier than ever before. I’m taking placenta capsules that my midwife made, they’re very helpful, I feel they are strengthening me, putting me back to my normal energy levels more quickly. In general the difference in diet, having been a raw vegan at about 80% during pregnancy, with fish on the side, has been a very healing diet for me. I can tell the way I eat this time is making the recovery faster and easier. I bled way less this post partum, I’m much less sore, and my body is more relaxed. Birth is such a normal, healthy, simple process, hence why it's important to share these birth stories. So many of us fear the natural process of birth and death. In a birth, both occurs, we die (the old part of us) and a new self is born, along with the baby. The emotional process following birth is a shedding and letting go of old parts of the Self, while allowing the new Self and Infant to anchor in this physical reality. It's a sacred portal, a time of empowerment for the divine feminine, a time which all women need to honor for themselves. In this birth, I was way more of an observer, noting that primarily towards the most intense part of labor, that I was watching the fear, calling it out, and walking through the veil. There was a point at which my body and soul commanded control of the situation, pushing past all fear and doubt. It was an involuntary process really. Though it was one that needed to be surrendered to. It's amazing what happens when you say, "Yes, okay, I'll go there." In this post partum period, especially the four days after the birth, I noticed my psychic awareness was at its highest level ever. I was open to everything. People often have noticed this about me in the past, but this past week was beyond heightened awareness. It was so intense that I asked it to settle down around day 3 because there was too much energy and activity happening in my room and I couldn't sleep. Since my last two boys were born, I forgot how thirsty and hungry you get when breastfeeding. I'm still adjusting my water and food intake to cope with the amount of energy output in breastfeeding. I've also had to remove dairy, eggs and chocolate for the baby's sake. So I am missing the mood lift of eating chocolate. I'm looking at this as a new level of cleansing, and less attachment to things I want. Plus forgoing those items is much better than losing sleep and listening to baby cry from an upset tummy. I learned all of this the hard way with my first child. It took me so long with my first child to realize that almost everything I ate bothered him, milk, egg, soy, legumes, chocolate, caffeine, citrus, etc. God bless those first babies who come out as guinea pigs. The third child definitely gets to benefit from a lot of lessons learned. My telepathic communication is very strong with this child, I can hear his adult male soul voice just as I always have, even before he incarnated. I'm very grateful for that. And on that note, he's waking up again to nurse. Love and blessings,

The New Schools

Archangel Michael Clearing number 1

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FOCUS

fo·cus (fks) n. pl. fo·cus·es or fo·ci (-s, -k) 1. a. A point at which rays of light or other radiation converge or from which they appear to diverge, as after refraction or reflection in an optical system: the focus of a lens. Also called focal point. b. See focal length. 2. a. The distinctness or clarity of an image rendered by an optical system. b. The state of maximum distinctness or clarity of such an image: in focus; out of focus. c. An apparatus used to adjust the focal length of an optical system in order to make an image distinct or clear: a camera with automatic focus. 3. A center of interest or activity. See Synonyms at center. 4. Close or narrow attention; concentration: "He was forever taken aback by [New York's] pervasive atmosphere of purposefulnessthe tight focus of its drivers, the brisk intensity of its pedestrians" (Anne Tyler). Learning and Remembering to FOCUS. Archangel Michael and Ascended Master Kuthumi will speak to the need to maintain focus at this time. We each have a mission, purpose and focus in our lifetimes here on Earth. There are many constant distractions, some real, and some presented as tests which we must learn to master. There are many steps you can take in your daily life to maintain focus so that you can attain your personal goals, keep your peace, and so forth. We will list here a general guideline for action steps you can take on a daily basis to maintain your focus, vision, clarity and purpose. To eliminate distractions: 1)Turn off your phone 2)Say no to Facebook, emails, calls, visitors, excessive runs to the kitchen to eat, etc 3)Breathe deeply for 5 minutes so your energy can be adjusted to what you need to focus on. 4)Yoga, exercise, and energy healing will help you prepare yourself daily to focus. Spend 1-3 hours a day doing this so your body can relax into being focused. 5)Lighten your diet (heavy foods make you sleepy and make it hard to work). 6)Eliminate toxins from your diet (drugs, alcohol, meat, cigarettes, caffeine, and in general anything you over-use) 7)Meditate (meditate at least twice a day, 20 min. each time, the type you choose is up to you) 8)Steadfastly ignore what is happening around you, don't engage in drama, the past, discussions of the past, thoughts of the past, and don't engage with others who attempt to snare your ego into control dramas. 9)Choose where you put your attention consciously. If you leave your mind room to wander, it will. It's like leaving a puppy in the living room all day, it will pee all over. Your mind will do the same if you don't give it a task. Choose a mantra, sing a positive song, do incantations, anything that focuses the mind when there is free time. 10)Make a list of what you need to do, try not to prioritize more than 5 items at a time. This will keep you from feeling overwhelmed. 11)Be into yourself, be into what you are doing. Stop giving attention to what others are doing. If you want to progress in any way, you must become more self-invested, self-focused. Service to God and Humanity requires focus. If you allow for too many distractions, it takes much longer to accomplish your goals and mission. While we are always on some level, available to those in need, it's imperative that you keep balanced, healthy, focused and free from drama or distractions. Your ability to focus is completely within the scope of your control. It is one aspect of life that you can be responsible for, which will have a positive impact on so many other parts of your life. You will learn to value your time, energy and power, thus others will respond in kind. When you honor God's time, God will honor yours. We realize humans need reminders. We realize the mind requires mastery. Learning to focus is one of the most important aspects to you accomplishing your mission in this lifetime. Pay attention and give yourself the focusing time you need, so you can stay balanced, fresh, happy, and able to fulfill your role on this planet at this time. Don't feel guilty for saying no to others, don't feel guilty for taking time away from loved ones, trust that you are doing what you need to be doing. Sometimes we have to sacrifice our personal desires to make progress in certain areas of life. This is character building and these are times when you will make the most progress in your life. Letting others judge and distract you are simply more ego games that you must learn to ignore. Others will always have a thought or two about what you should be doing. Self-mastery is learning to listen to the Source within, trusting that you are correctly hearing that voice and listening with focus, clarity and confidence that you are doing the right thing. Do not allow others to dissuade you from your truth, your focus and your knowledge. If you feel off-balance, breathe, do yoga, chant, sing, dance, be in nature and re-align with the God/Goddess within to reclaim your focus. This may need to occur several times throughout the day, at a minimum. Do not be surprised by the number of distractions that are heading your way. Anticipate them and remember what to do. With love always,

Services Offered at Angel Peace

Sessions provided via phone, Skype, email, your home, or mine, or the beach in Aptos, CA Services offered: Pregnancy Counseling (pre-conception healing, fertility concerns, relationship counseling, nutritional/wellness counseling, spiritual/meditation/yoga sessions, and holistic care). Doula and Post Partum Doula care for women. Holistic Parent Coaching for Special Needs Children. Support and Coaching sessions for Spiritual Families (schooling, holistic approaches to healing, life purpose coaching and general support for your family mission). Reiki Energy Healing Training for the Family, Individuals or Groups. Group meditation, healing, clearing with Intuitive Messages. Ceremonies of any kind. Women's Empowerment (healing, sexual healing, energy balancing, mothering, legal/child support/custody coaching, divorce coaching, relationship coaching, support for single mothers). Readings (Your Spirit Guides as channeled through me for messages for your soul's evolution, growth and learning). Weight loss, exercise, wellness plans (includes readings and intuitive guidance on herbals and other holistic approaches that are best suited for you at the time).

Ashana ~ The Aramaic Lord's Prayer ~

Walking or running into the light,
sacred words, sacred relationships, sacred hearts
Know the blood running through your veins,
The Feminine is risen now, remember your vows to the Goddess
She is what feeds your every breath,
She is what gave you life,
May those who tread on this great Earth remember the life they were given, the body,
the tongue, the mind, the heart, and remember from a valley within how to honor
that Feminine from which they are born.
Honor creation, honor the Mother, honor this land and these holy waters of the Feminine.

Star Kids and Utopia

We just spent a fun week discussing plans for an eco-community, school and center with a group of children, planning and designing. There is nothing more correct than letting these happy kids design their own life. If you want divine design, ask the kids, they know what they're doing. Someone asked me why I felt the community needs to be vegetarian (at least mostly) and I was reminded by the Star Kids, that they are mostly vegetarian and prefer to be. I was reminded again, that these are not my plans, they are their plans. The Star Children are in charge of what I am creating, I'm just a vessel for it to manifest through on the physical plane. The children, who are embodying all light, have within the teachings that humanity needs. It will become ever more important for adults to realize now that the children are the teachers and it's wise to let them do their thing. We are being colloquial in our language, probably a bit of Hawaiian energy coming through right now for various reasons, which is much less formal and pretentious in nature. The scope and design of this center, school and community is being revealed to me to be much larger than what I thought and working with the children is confirming this, because they are not limited by lack or scarcity mentality that modern adults struggle with today. One child told me that the community needs to be 10 miles x 10 miles and that it would then become a state. At first the statement seemed lofty, but in truth, all the patriarchal ancestors and masters knew their power and knew the grandness of who they are. When you really know who you are and what you can do, you think bigger, and you dream bigger. It's not about ego, it's about the New Earth being that which we know it can be. We may build pyramids again, castles, temples and maybe yurts and earthships too. If we take the best of Ancient Civilizations (Egypt, Lemuria, Atlantis, Telos, Agartha, Mayan, etc.) we understand the possibilities of what we can create again on Earth. It is time. We go up, in our vision, our mind, our chakras, to bring down the information, and we connect with the Star Children who are holding the vision, tools, and plans for this Earth. We are designing Utopia. We are designing a peaceful planet. In fact, it has been designed, we're just realigning humanity now. And we are welcoming a new generation of children who know what this Earth is meant to be like. A school bumper sticker will be: Get out of the way, the kids are in charge! Most people keep asking me about the curriculum, wondering what it is, and while I've written a book on it, to sum it up in short: The kids are in charge. They learn what they want. Why will this work well? The children are Masters. They know what they're doing. They know who they are. They are incredibly tuned into Source. Rainbow Hawaiian Star swirls to all! We're moving into a beautiful vortex of energy, otherwise known as a birth canal, a portal, whatever you'd like to call it. The whale energy is loud and clear right now, keep your hearts tuned to the dolphins and whales, we currently have a huge number of blue whales in the Monterey Bay as I type. They are feasting on krill and very happy.

Deva Premal - Om Shree Saché

Om shree saché maha prabhu

Ki jai

Paramatma ki jai

Om shanti shanti shantihi om

May the ultimate truth and that which

is beyond all boundaries be victorious.

May there be peace, peace, peace.

Placenta Therapy (Very important information for women)

Compassionate Mothering

As I listened to the Dalai Lama speak in the video below, I felt guided to share a few things. First, it is so good for him to mention that students' hearts need to be fed in schools. Second, I personally did not have a compassionate mother (I say this because I know many who also feel this way), yet as a mother, I was able to pull on my natural instincts to be a compassionate mother. There was and is an internal drive to be a different mother than the one I had when I was growing up. This remains true today. We cannot blame our parents for our lack of compassion. We as women, cannot make excuses. Women must drive the family in the right direction. Women must drive schooling children in the right direction. To all the women I know, including myself, who are divorced. To those of us who can only decide 50% of the time (at best) how our children are raised: We pray for solution, resolution and God's will to overcome all obstacles related to the old masculine domination in society which continues to rear our children in the old ways of old masculine world of fear, oppression, and competition. May that time end. For all the women I know (and do not yet know) who understand what I say here, it's important to do what you can, with what you have, to the extent that you can, despite the seemingly impossible task of undoing what happens the 50% of the time your children are not in your care. As a case manager, the stories I have heard and seen would make your blood boil, no matter your gender. I speak from personal and work experience when I say what I say. This is a time when the hearts of women must bear witness and endure more suffering. Women are fighting to keep their children, women are hoping to keep their children safe, and there is still too much resistance despite the many strides we as lightworkers are making in the higher dimensions. When we say that we create our reality, this is true. But for many of us, we are not in charge of at least 50% of our children's other reality. We can only create that loving reality for them 50% of the time. What happens the other part of the time, is often out of our hands. So for that time, we pray and hold space for our children and for each other. The karmic lessons of our children, of their souls, often determines how and why things are the way they are. It's important for each parent to understand this. While we can feel guilty, blaming ourselves or each other, one truth that exists is that each child has selected their parents, their karmic lessons and so forth. For many of us, this is very hard to witness. For those parents and children, we pray for love to infuse the situation from all directions of time and space. For all women who suffer, and for all those who ignore, we pray. For all children who are in suffering, we pray. I say this with great conviction: Most people, especially those in the western world, have no concept of the kind of suffering of women and children of which I speak. This suffering is on the whole, ignored. Most of the world, and most certainly most of the men of this world, turn a blind eye and a deaf ear. If you are a conscious lightworker, or if you think you are, you have a responsibility. There is a call. If you cannot hear the calls of those in suffering, you have not tuned into the channel of compassion. From experience, I know that many lightworkers turn off this channel because the pain is too hard to bear. I say again with conviction that it is much harder to be the one in suffering. Remember your compassion. Lightwork is not about looking pretty or making yourself out to look proper. Many lightworkers think that they came into this lifetime to talk peace and love. This is true. But we did not come in to sit on our butts while people suffer. This is not the teaching of any Master. Caroline Myss' words are ringing in my ear: "Who do you think you are? What kind of spiritual arrogance is that?" You cannot talk peace and love and then turn your head and ignore the suffering of women and children. That is being recorded. Each action and inaction is recorded. If you wish to continue to not walk your talk, your real power will be dismantled and you cannot continue to call yourself a servant of God, nor a lightworker. Go back to being a normal person, but do not attempt to wear the cloak of a holy person while you disregard suffering to maintain your own comforts and selfish desires. Again, Teresa of Avila and Caroline Myss' voices are ringing. There are a lot of people pretending. Many of them are lightworkers. Women have a cross to bear in this lifetime. Women must move forward. Women must make changes in the world. If men want to help and join, excellent, but women must not waste more time waiting for men to join or follow. Desmond Tutu and the Dalai Lama have both spoken publicly about this topic, about the need of women to move forward without the men. This is what is required now. When it is time, the right-minded men of the world will join us. For now, most of them are not ready and indeed, most of them are trying to get in the way (consciously or unconsciously), afraid of losing control and power and still attempting to keep women out of their power(sexually, physically, mentally, emotionally, verbally and financially). Women need to wake up to this and fearlessly make decisions to move forward despite the hardships we face. A compassionate mother is love. Love is sometimes also tough love. Roses are lovely, but sometimes we need our swords and shields. It's just the time we are living in. My advice at this time: Check in with Archangel Michael to make sure you are aligned with your divine life purpose. Check in and ask him to clear your ego blocks, fear thoughts and self-imposed limitations. Check in and make sure your vision and heart are clear. Simply put: Archangel Michael, please make sure I'm not sitting on my butt while people are suffering, I know that's not why I'm here. Please light the fires under our butts so we get to our mission in life. Please destroy all illusion blocking this truth. May everyone be willing to see what they are responsible for, especially if they are a lightworker. Thank you God, so be it! To be continued...

The Power of Women

Alex Stark Interview Part 7 of 8